Data Breach: Self Talk, Wait For Clarity - Protect Your Peace

You are a Hulk. Fully expect rash overreactions to everything you do that feels natural to you. Go ahead, build and erect murals that communicate you don’t even trust yourself with such superhuman strength. Hope poachers don’t start dressing up in gf and or bunny suits. Play it safe. Ask for ID’s and confirm identities. You tried vulnerability. Now it’s time for you to feel safe.  You’ve done handstands to show others your devotion and openness. Now you get a direct message from a suspicious account asking questions and things you’ve waited decades to answer. Feels fishy doesn’t it?  Look at you, finally confident enough to wear cut off tshirts eating a protein filled breakfast.  You are just now, 10+ years later starting to trust yourself opening up and letting people in. Recall that you would have gone to the ends of the earth in pure discomfort just to see a smile. Just last week you caught yourself thinking of all the gains that misplaced energy could have gone into making. Sure, she’s worth it. Living in the dark silence, not so much. Do yourself a favor, remember how well you are doing now.  Is it smart to risk such momentum for another unknown?

Assurance, once, would be everything and then some, hm!?  Go ahead, continue growing towards the sun like a sun-facing dandelion or sunflower.  Face it, if she wanted you to feel safe she would make you feel safe. You’ve published books, ongoing letters and articles pointing out that you have needs too!  Feeling safe is essential.  It’s needed for growth, development, trust building and Hope. Now, that you’re open and ready for business she wants to jip the line. Uhhh..  doesn’t feel right to me.

Now smile, little does she or anyone else know that you’ve been in the kitchen the whole time. You’ve stayed organized, you’ve been focused and you are more hellbent now than ever before to produce superior results.

It fascinates me still but 12 years give or take after sensing a more rhythmic drumroll of heartbeats, a newer, fresher more melodic hum can even still be picked up. I’ve gone from hailing and kissing the floorboards certain gypsies have walked on, to stamping overseas letters, to allowing half baked comic book-style characters run things. Introduces, Shining Moon’s twin sister, Full Moon!