Learning curves are supposed to help you learn, right?  I could definitely use one of them. More so in the  socialization area. I have sat on my hands for over a dozen years, poking at and sensationalizing friendship with a girl way out of my league. Wishing her pleasant dreams and everything. I’ve sent flowers, chocolates, poetry, well wishes, and everything under the sun because I fancied her. I actually started a comic book series featuring her to practice talking things out and to build my confidence. Her “presence” had been a crucial aide in my recovery and training.   One thing led to another and I think we ended up texting. Like an A-hole I resisted saving her contact info thinking this has to be a dream.  It is hard to trust random numbers texting you, for me anyways. Especially when they ask you do you love me?  Walls up!  Protection mode active!  Years of effort down the drain.   I’m not sure how it happened, but I found myself in a group conversation with her and her mom. Hyperventilating, is putting it nicely.  Question, do you accept friend requests from looks to be fake accounts?

Picture perfect lives that look too good to be true, don’t feel real to me.

Sweetheart, I am going to wait for confirmation via picture, video or FaceTime to unleash the hounds again. Stay beautiful, your hopeful-Kyle