This is just a draft.  Pay it no mind.  Imagine.. if you had only directed all that energy you put into chasing certain people, opportunities and loot into more receptive individuals, God and freedom, I bet you would be a lot happier.
 (Psst..  Let them chase you!)

IM learning this slowly, myself.  It’s very easy to stress yourself out chasing unavailable people.  IM learning to avoid that.  Volunteering opportunities will dry up lifting every rock looking for them, in my experience.   Try something, focus on elevating your health, physique and discipline.  Get back in the lab!  Post signage stating to text first if you want a call answered.  Silence incoming calls, texts and notifications.  Become scarce.  Cheapening yourself is lowering your worth.  Go ahead, rent a billboard.  Etch your phone number in it just light enough that those interested in all you have to offer has to pull over and read it like brail.  
Trust me, once you find joy in upping your skills, looks and fitness, they’ll be lining up at your door.  Kick back, if they don’t schedule an appointment to interview you, that’s on them.  You’re the one offering them a chance to work with you.  Your time and effort is very valuable.  -MH